Children in Foster Care, Foster ParentingApr. 17, 2015

Forgotten Friday: Foster Care – Loving a Child that Might Leave

I’ll never forget the day it all changed for me. My greatest fear, like so many others who are considering venturing down the beautiful yet tumultuous path of foster care, was not whether or not I could love a child that was not my own but whether or not I could handle letting a child go that I have grown to love as my own.

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I couldn’t get beyond this concern, and couldn’t move forward because of it. I shared my fear with a friend who was a foster dad at the time, and his response both challenged and settled me. It revealed to me that my concerns were backwards, centered on me and how I mightfeel rather than on the child and how they do feel.

He said that for him and his wife, they were committed to experiencing the pain of loving a child they might lose if it meant a child who has lost so much could experience the gain of their love. A profound statement for me at the time, but one filled with a purity and simplicity that respostured my concern – away from what I stand to lose and towards what a child might stand to gain. In the simplest of terms I realized, it’s not about me, it’s about these kids.

A DIFFERENT KIND OF FEAR

As my wife and I began the foster care process with a three day old baby girl we had to make the same decision for ourselves – that we would rather experience the pain of a very great loss if it meant this little girl placed in our home could experience the gain of a very great love – no matter how long she stayed with us. We would embrace the heartache of having to let her go if it meant she knew, if even for a short time, what it meant to truly be held onto. We can’t let the fear of loving a child who might leave deter us; we must let the fear of a child never knowing love drive us. A different kind of fear. A better one.

Most foster parents have heard it said to them – I don’t know if I could fully love a child knowing I might have to let them go – and every foster parent has had to wrestle with the weight of that statement in themselves. It’s an inherent tension that comes with loving a child that is not your own – a tension that often deters people in fear from getting involved. We all know the end goal of foster care is to provide safe and loving permanence for a child, and we also know that permanence for them might not mean permanence for us. Our motivations are severely challenged by this very real possibility, revealing any self-centered disposition within ourselves – a posture which is more concerned about what it will cost us to give love to a child rather than what it will cost a child to never receive love from us. Yet then, as we weigh in balance what we stand to lose against what they stand to gain, the answer is simple – not always easy to do – but simple to see as worth it in the end. We can’t let the fear of loving a child who might leave deter us; we must let the fear of a child never knowing love drive us.

GIVING OUR FAMILY FOR A CHILD

The call in foster care is not to get a child for your family; it’s to give your family for a child. A slightly different statement with significantly different implications. Click to continue reading Jason’s post.

Jason Johnson Jason Johnson

I am the husband of Emily, a dad to 4 girls (youngest adopted through foster care in 2013) and a former pastor of 13 years. I now serve as the Director of Church Engagement for Arrow Foundation (www.arrow.org) and am the Creator of ALL IN Orphan Care (www.allinorphancare.com). I have the privilege of traveling around the country engaging, equipping and mobilizing the Church towards foster care and adoption.

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